Monday, July 17, 2006

back

hey after days and days of not bloggin, finally really feel the need to leave a post up to update . lol. ive realised maybe that im totally not the sort to blog? yea i guess. i cant keep up with it bloggin regularly, let alone everyday. sigh

things in school and training has not been in the best form . oh well, it just suck. microeconmic suck like hell man, i cant catch up the past few lessons, its probably confusing and complex for me.. really need that time to catch up on it. other subjects been quite fine . i guess i must start mugging if not there wont be sufficient time for me, especially POM. zzz
well for db, ive really screwed up the push up section. so i jolly well know that i just wont be garanteed a place in da team. sighh. its really a big down time for me, im at a lost at what to do. months and weeks of rigorious trainings will just go flushing down da drain? well, i will find out in the coming weeks. i seriously hope i can get in, i really want to be part of it. but i know in life things wont go your way everytime, so make do with it . fuck.

well IF im in the team, i guess i will be highly estatic as it will go down as one of the most hardest thing ive achieved in my life. fancy beating hundreds of other db wanabes haha. now the group is down to around 40+, kinda scary.
alright now for the pessimistic side, IF (god bless...) im really out. im not sure what i wana do next. thought of training on my own, but if that's the only thing i can muster. well besides that maybe i can have a shot at num. my future in da team looks promising at first, now it turns bleak. helppp. oh well;
we'll see..



now write something about my love scene? haha, its been a long time since ive wrote some stuff about it. trainings and studies, do i still have da time to date or rather find the her i want? haha, sigh. even i may fancy that girl, she may not be feeling the same way as i do anyway.. its hard.
at times when im feeling lonely, kinda envious of those who are attached. but when i see them quarrelling with each other, sometimes i realise being single is not the end too.
its been sometime since ive got attached. at least a year i guess. i feel like falling in love again, some day . . .

ive met angie recently and i really liked that feeling. haha, although the feeling towards her is not as intense as before. moreover its still heartwarming, it really puts me out of those stress i had. i wonder how would it be like if we've been together at sec school, haha. wondering what changes have you made .. other than your increasing weight hahaha, i really wanna know.
well, if you're reading this, and wanna give me an answer, just message me lol.
eh, it sounds stupid to ask people how have they change leh, alright take it as im lazy to take back my words.

goin back to do tutorial.. see ya

S.H.E album cominggggg... HAHHAHAH HEHEHHEE.

Resigned;
x6:50 AM

i want to watch the sunset with you by my side ;